tierney*

Mon, 30 Jul 2007 13:25:41 GMT

Today is UCA Cheer Camp, and im so excited. I literally look forward to this all year. Especially when they're certain people and teams you want to destroyy. =]

its been over a year

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 00:33:09 GMT

i love reading peoples livejournals randomly. Cause its so cool when people secretly update their journals, and your like hey that wasnt to long ago. anyways, i always like reading them cause it shows how much things have changed. well yea. im wrting to myself. hehe.

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 21:47:58 GMT

Well this week was good. On ThrusdayI went to school ,and 3rd period Foran Band came, they were good. I missed Spanish Yipee! LoL Then 8th period we all had to go outside and take the big 8th picture for yearbook. It was in the shape of a '05. I was in the front of the zero! I could barely see, and they kept taking pictures! LoL After school like no noe was going to yearbook so Chelsea and I decided that we didn't want to go either! We had "doctor appointments". LoL So then we went to the black top and I saw Kristen and after like 15 minutes Kris, and I decided we wanted ice cream, so we walked and talked to Scooby Doo's, but it was closed! : ( It opens next Friday and I'm going to go! So then we went to Subway and got sandwiches and talked. Then around 3: 30 we lefted and Kristen had the go to dance so I walked her there and then I called my mom to put me up. ( You can't walk home! What if someone takes you or kills you! OMG what if your not in school tomorrow! I'd die!! LoL Kris) So then I came home and went to gymnastics around 5:15. It was go I'm learning how to get a round off back handspring! Then after that I went to the Harborside Talent Show. It was fun! Tucker was so good, LoL Steph! And so was Dalmary and Sarah. A lot of people were there and we talked the whole time. I kept video taping everyone. Good Times! Then it ended and I went home, hung around, and went to bed. Today was good too! I went to school and in L.A we had to do our plays for a Midsummer Night's Dream. I was in the "ghetto group". I crimped my hair, got a hat and wore it side ways, put up my hood and put a scar on my face! It was funny! The rest of the day was good too. After school Gina and I went walked home and we went to Gina's home. It was fun. We watched the Incredibles, its a good movie! Then Gina had to go to dance. So now I am home, and I'm not doing anything . So call me or IM me to make plans! 415-0412!! o0o Yea, dont forget to COMMENT!

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 20:26:01 GMT

Everyone Go To The Talent Show Tonight! It Will Be Fun! LoL oxox Comment!

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 23:46:19 GMT

Thuesday*

Well thuesday was good. School was ok. In the beginning of the day I was angery,But C.A.R was good(Playing People Bingo LoL Brit, Nat, E, and G!)And Science was good because we had that sub and he made us sit in our 2nd marking period seats. Which I loved! It was Michelle C, Pete, Andrew , and Tara, it was so happy to be sitting there again, I like that table so much better, it brought back so memories!And L.A was good too, practicing out in the hall! LoL Then after school Steph, and I went downtown. Really quick we went to Dunkin Donuts, I got a Coffee Colotta.And we went to Harborside and there were a whole bunch of people there. But only like 5 girls! (Steph, Paam, Dina, Kaitlynn, and me) All the rest were boys. It was fun. We hung out down there for about a hour and a half. Then Steph and I were going to leave, but I lost my earring. LoL! But in the end, it was in my purse. And after downtown I had to gymnastics. Kiara I almost did my round-off back hand spring! LoL Then I came home and hung around the house, because that's what I do best.

Today*

Today was very good. I was so happy it was sunny! I wore my new shirt. Today was my day!(LoL Lunch table) I had first period and then all the Spanish classes went to Parsons for this Spanish music thing. It was fun , because East Shore and West Shore were there and I saw people I knew! I sat next to Nat, and Michele S. OMG Steph Brian Ward!!LoL It was so unfair all the other schools could dance but not us. But Mannie did dance with the Spanish teacher. LoL Hey, I missed 2nd, 3rd, and some of 4th. Yipee The rest fo the day was good. Gym was cool, because we went outside. And then after scgool, I had to got to gymnastics, it was ok. Now I'm just chillen.LoL If anyone wants to go to the talent show tomorrow, IM or comment me, Call me (415-0412), or tell me in school! Well that's it, COMMENT!!!!! 6 days<3

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 19:26:38 GMT

Stunt Team Competition*

Well on Sunday, I had my Stunt Team Competiton at the Basketball Hall Of Fame. I took Steph with me. My dad said he knew where he was doing, but he really didn't so we got lost, and got there last. LoL But that's ok, so CPP Cheer & Stunt Team were competing. So we put all our stuff down, and did our hair, make-up and stretched. Well my stunt team had to go on the floor at 3:05 and the cheerleading stunt had to go on at 3:45. So my stunt team went on the practice mat, and then lined up to go on and compete. When we competed we did really good, everything was prefect, but one stunt was alittle wobbly. So then our stunt team went on the mat,and they annouced the winners. We got 1st place! Yipee! I was so excited, good jobs girls. So after that I went and found Steph, and we watched cheer teams. Some were really good, and then we watched CPP Cheer Squad, they were good. So after that we walked around for alittle and played different games and stuff. I got a sweatshirt, I wore it today, if anyone noticed. LoL Then we went and ate at Max's Taven, when I realized I left my stuff (Jacket, Pants, and Bag) where we were before. So Steph, and I went back and they weren't there. But when I got home, Stacy told me Greta had me jacket, but I still don't know where the pants and bag are. O Man! But anyways after dinner we went for Ice Cream at Cold Stone! OMG that place is the best, had At The Cocoa Banana Cabana. It was so good. It was banana ice cream, with bananas, yellow cake, and hot fudge! (It's got cake in it!! LoL Steph) Then we lefted in the car Steph and I watched the Breakfast Club (Did your mom marry Mr Rogers? No, Mr. Johnson!), took picutres, and call places (Hello, I want a large cheese pizza, and I live in the middle of Nevada and I am traveling circus clown, and I want my pizz hot and cold!) LoL Good Times!So we dropped Steph off, and came home. And I get hung around and did my nails. That's was a great day!

Today*

Well I was really tired today. LoL But school was good. Lunch was good! LoL (Lunch Table) I went to the Foran Planetarium today, it was fun! Dalmarys and I sat in the first seat on the bus because were to cool for the back, but then we sat in the last seat in the back of the bus on the way back. LoL In Foran I sat next to Kristen, and Dalmarys. Haley too, but I wasnt right next to her. LoL It was fun! We talked the whole timed and moved around alot. LoL Ms. Dionne fell asleep, and Chelsea was like "Good Morning Ms. Dionne!" Thats as funny. When we got back to school, I had Science, we really didnt do anything, the girls and I spent most are time in the bathroom. LoL Well now I'm home, and I have CCD, and practice tonight. Well g2g. Don't foget to comment!!!!! 8 days <3

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 15:08:08 GMT

This Cute, You Should Read It!

It's Okay....
...to wish for every thing to be like it used to.
...to take time to look good.
...to tell the guy you like you have a crush on him.
...to cry and still feel beautiful.
...to sing in the shower.
...to want to be around him every minute of everyday.
...to make mistakes as long as you learn from them.
...to forgive and move on.
...to buy too many clothes.
...to laugh for no reason.
...to have no regrets.
...to actually have regrets.
...to PARTY too much.
...to take too many pictures.
...to want everything your way.
...to have bad days.
...to live life to the fullest.
...to not give up.
...to try new things
...to have hope.
...to dream BIG.
...to say how you feel.
...to be honest.
...to miss him.
...to love him.
...to hate her.
...to smile like nothing's wrong.
...to cheer people up despite your mood.
...to spend ALL your money.
...to wish things would be different.
...to want everything.
...to want nothing.
...to be flirtacious.
...to kiss boys.
...to dance like no one's watching.
...to go out on dates with lotsa boys.
...to be in love.
...to give presents.
...to eat ice cream until you throw-up.
...to be a heartbreaker.
...to have your heart broken.
...to spend hours on the phone.
...to spend hours on the phone saying nothing.
...to be bored 24 hours a day.
...to look at yourself in the mirror.
...to be confident.
...to just be friends.
...to never lose hope of more than friends.
...to know he's making a mistake.
...to tell him how you feel about it.
...to stare at him.
... to be you.
...to try to impress him.
...to not impress him.
...to be hysterical.
...to be beautiful.
...to love yourself.

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 20:28:28 GMT

Oh My Gosh! My Stunt Team Competition is Tomorrow! I wasn't going to they it make me nervous! But now I'm nervous but I'm really excited! Yipee Well the reason I wrote this was because I want people to comment and wish my team Good Luck!!! And I want to give a shout out to CPP Cheer Squad and Stunt Team! We are going to rox! Don't forget to comment! oxoxoxox

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 03:37:18 GMT

1* First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Kissel

2* Last word you said: Silly!

3* Last song you sang: Um.. IDK

4* Last person you hugged: MoM

5* Last thing you laughed at: Um... me and Kristen convo.

6* Last time you said I dont remember: Question 3, LoL

7* Last time you cried: Um... Yesterday, I got hurt : (

*PRESENT*

9* What color socks are you wearing: White and Blue! (Milford Elks Socks!)

10* What's under your bed: Old Stuff

11* What time did you wake up today: 7:00

12* Current taste: Ice Cream From Carvel!

13* Current hair: Messy Bun!

15* Current annoyance: I bit My Tongue!

16* Current longing: Sleepover LoL

17* Current desktop background: Yellow Tulips

18* Current worry: Um... IDK I have alot.

19* Current hate: Knowing That I Have Nothing To Do Tomorrow

20* Current clothing: Cheer Sweatshirt, pj pants, and slippers LoL

21* Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex: Um.. Everything!

22* Last CD that you listened to: Kelly Clarkson --> Behind These Hazel Eyes

23* Favorite place to be: Um.. With Friends

24* Least favorite place: Um.. IDK

25* Time you wake up in the morning: School: 6:50, 7, Weekends:IDK

26* If you could play an instrument,what would you play: The Drums!!

27* Favorite color: Purple

28* Do you believe in an afterlife: Um.. I guess so

29* How tall are you: 4'11

30* Current favorite word/saying: That's Cute

31* Favorite book: IDK

32* Favorite season: Winter (But I Like Them All)

33* One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: I don't know, that's something to think about!

*FUTURE*

35* Where do you want to go for college? Um.. Maybe Mass.

36* What is your career going to be like: A Teacher LoL

37* How many kids do you want: 2

*HAVE YOU EVER...*

39* Said "I love you" and meant it: Yea

40* Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc: LoL Sadly Yes!

41* Been to New York: yup

42* Been to Florida: yup

43* Been to California: nope

44* Been to Hawaii: no

45* Been to Mexico: nope

46* Been to China: no

48* Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: yea

*RANDOM*

52* Do you have a crush on someone? yes

53* What book are you reading now? Teen People

54* Worst feeling in the world: Loniness

55* What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: What Day Is It!! LoL

56* How many rings before you answer: Two!

57* Future daughter's name: Clarie

58* Future son's name: Kyle

59* Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: No

60* If you could have any job you wanted: Um.. Be a Rich Model!

61* Who do you wish were here: Um.. IDK

62* College plans: IDK

63* Piercings: Ears

*THE EXTRA STUFF*

64* Do you do drugs: No

65* Do you drink: No

67* What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: Herbal Essital

68* What are you most scared of: The Dark and Scary Movies!

69* What clothes do you sleep in: pajamas

70* Who is the last person that called you: Um.. I Think My Dad

71* Where do you want to get married: An Pretty Island

72* If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: Taller!

73* Who do you really hate: ______

74* Been In Love: Yes

75* Are you timely or always late: bothh

76* Do you have a job: babysitting?

77* Do you like being around people: yup

78* Best feeling in the world: loved!

79* Are you for world peace: i think ..

80* Are you a health freak: No

81* Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: Um.. I don't think so

82* Do you want someone you don't have? Yes

83* Are you lonely right now: Sort' of

84* Ever afraid you'll never get married: IDk

85* Do you want to get married: Yes

86* Do you want kids? wasnt tht asked before? Yes, it was LoL

*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...*

87* Cried: yea

88* Bought Something: No

89* Gotten Sick: No

90* Sang: Yes

91* Said I Love You: Yea

92* Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: Yes!

93* Met Someone: Yea

94* Moved On: Nope

95* Talked To Someone: yepp

96* Had A Serious Talk: No

97* Missed Someone: Yea

98* Hugged Someone: Yea

99* Yelled at Someone: Yep

I Hope You Die!!! <---- April Fools!

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 00:13:18 GMT

Well Thrusday started out as a good day. But ended badly. In school, it was the last day of CMT testing which was bad, because I liked taking them because they were easy and I missed Social Studies and Spanish!I made a fotune teller and Jason made a air-plane and I decorated it! Super Plane, To The Recuse! LoL And the rest of school was good. But in Chorus was Ms. Voss made us write these essays because she hates are class! But guysare All-Girl Class rox! o0o yea, in CAR Ven circled all the wrong answers in my book, and drew all over my arm, and I got in troubel. Not Cool! Then after school was yearbook, which was really good! We got some pictures back, they cute. Steph and I had a good time in yearbook! LoL Some funny moments! And after yeakbook Steph and I decided we wanted to walk home, so we could hang out after yearbook with Gloria, Chelsea, Greta, Steph F, and a whole bunch of boys playing basketball! {Steph ; ) } Then about a half an hour later Steph, and I walked home. "I'm not jumping, ok me either" I jump and Steph doesn't LoL So then I got home, and then got ready for Gymnastics it was ok. One of the cheerleading squads were there and they were awesome! And after that I had to go to stunt team. When I got there everyone was in there uniform expect me! Opps! I think that might had started my bad mood. And it just kept getting worse and worse. And then I got a attiude, which wasn't a good thing! LoL So I lefted as soon as I could to cool down, sorry to anyone that I was mean to, really didnt mean it! Well today was ok, Happy April Fools Day! Um.. well school was interesting! LoL today I told Chelsea R my dog died and she believe me, I'm so sorry! But it was funny cause Chelsea C believed me to and I thought she already knew! "But how he'd die?" lol And well I was suppose to switch a class with Greta , but I didn't because by the time I got upstairs and to her homeroom the door was already shut and her teacher was teaching. And it would have been to weird to just walk in. So I guess Chelsea and Greta did it instead, and got in trouble. But they shouldnt have gotten in trouble, because it was just a suptid prank! God Mr. Hansen, can you take a joke, and try to smile? OMG we had the meanest and rudest sub for homeroom. I hated her! So school wasn't that great. LoL Well noe for the rest of the day I'll be home doing nothing. LoL Sorry I couldn't go Jenna! Well I'm around, so call! 415-0412! LoL Don't forget to comment!! 11 days <3

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 02:52:54 GMT

Ok, now that last two day have been really good! On Thuesday I had school and it was good, and Natalie and I presented are project. LoL We finished it two minutes before presenting. LoL We rox! And the rest of the day was good, we started the CMT testing, it's pretty easy, I miss Spanish and Social Studies! o0o Yeah!! And after school I had stunt team I was good, we got our uniforms. There ok... Then I had all this L.A stuff to do. And today was great! LoL It was so nice out! I wore capris and a t-shirt! LoL We had more CMT testing! (Khandace- Are my lips white?) LoL That was so funny! And after the CMT's Chelsea, Chelsea, and I took all these pictures with Dave and J. It was fun. And the rest I the day rocked. L.A I got the Getto Group! And gym was really good too, LoL Nat & Steph. And after school was fun too! I had Gymnastics which was good, I was really hyper! Well anyways after that I went to my cousin's house to drop something off, the came home and did homework, but that's ok! OMG I don't know why but this day was the best! oxox COMMENT! COMMENT! COMMENT! 13 days <3

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 00:01:02 GMT

Easter*
On Easter, I had a good day. I woke up around 9. Came downstairs and got a Easter basket. Yipee! Got some good stuff. Anyways, so around 2 my family and I went out to brunch with some more family. LoL It was so good! I was so stuffed, the food was yummy! After that, we went to my anut's house because she just moved, her place is so cute. We stayed there, and then lefted around 6. And for the rested of the day I hung around in my room. It was fun. Happy Be-Lated Easter!

Today*
Today was ok. Good day up until the last minutes of school. For the lst 2 periods we went and watched a A MidSummer Night Dream. It was ok, kinda funny. Then half of my team left to go on a feild trip to Foran, for the space thingy.So for our classes we didn't do anything. Hung Around. LoL L.A was fun though, I like acting. But anyways my day was ruined because something is on my birthday and I cant miss it and it's really upsetting! So I got home, didn't go to CCD cause... well I don't know why. LoL And I did my homework, and now I'm doing nothing. And for some odd reason, I got this weird feeling just now and I don't know why.... LoL But anyways. So that's my day! PLEASE COMMENT! PLEASE Thanx oxoxoxo

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 15:23:38 GMT

Happy Easter Everyone!

ox Tierney xo

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 17:11:38 GMT

Well the last few days have been good. Let's see on Thrusday there was a 90 minute delay, which I was very happy about! LoL and school was good. I gave out lolipops! YuM Then after school I had my gymnastics class, and I fell doing a back hand spring and now two of my fingers are all messed up! LoL And than after gymnastics I has stunt team, that was good. I like the new thing we do in it. And after stunt team Kristen, Eirka, Brittany, Greta, Rachel, and I were suppose to go bowling for the Midnight bowling thing, but we couldnt so instead we all went to Chili's with Justin and Leon, but than Leon left. Chili's was fun! Greta's birthday! LoL That waitress was cool. And after Chili's all the girls went back to Kristen's house to sleepover. It was so much fun! We had a fashion show and I was the annoucer. We stayed up all night and we weren't even tired! LoL It was light out when we decided we should sleep, we went to sleep at 6:00 and around 10 Brittant, Erika, and Rachel lefted. And Greta, Kristen, and I slepted until 1:30 and then went out from pizza. It was good. Kristen and her water. LoL Then I came home got ready and Natalie came over to work on our project. We made pizza, all I had yesterday was pizza! LoL Our pizza's were yummy! After we made the pizza's we just hung put, we made OC rings! LoL Then around 9:30 she lefted, and I just hung around, and went to bed. Anyways, today I woke up around 9:30 and ate breakfast. And pretty much have been on the computer. But now I'm going to pick up the house for Easter tomorrow! Yipee. Tonight I'm coloring eggs, LoL . My dog is getting a hair cut today, he's going to look so cute! Well I g2g, Comment!!!! oxox

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 03:02:29 GMT

Well today was a ok day. Um.. school was good expect for two things. Someone said something to put me in a bad mood, and the second thing only Natalie knows ; ) But other then that school was good,gym was fun,the whole day it went by kinda fast. But anyways after school I had to go to gymnastics I really didn't do anything today.So that was worthless. And now I'm home I finished my project and homework which is good, and now I'm just relaxing. I hope there's no school tomorrow or at least a delay. LoL Well I got to go. My day wasn't very exciting. Hopefully tomorrow will be better! Please Comment! No one ever comments anymore... :' (

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 03:36:05 GMT

The last few days were good. On Sunday Julie, and I went skiing at Ski Sun Down. I had such a good, time I really like to ski! She fell 4 times and I fell 5! LoL Someone tried to knock down Julie's dad! And we chased after him! LoL We must had ski for about 5 hours! And when we were going home someone stole the wipers on Julie's car! Oh No! But it was ok, after skiing we went to Subway and then came home. I had a great time thanx Jewls! On Monday nothing really happened. Had to go back to school, but that was ok. I like school for the friends LoL After school I didn't go to CCD and worked on the Social Studies project instead. I'm almost done! YaY! And then I pretty much did nothing else. Today I woke up and took a shower, and went to school, it was good. We had to take some test thingy, it was pretty easy. Then the rest of the day went by pretty quick.Then I came home worked on homework and the project, and took my puppy Tuffy to the vet.He's got some stuff wrong with him. I'm so sad :' ( And at 7 I went to stunt team, no afence but we didn't do good tonight, well do better on Thrusday! And now I'm home jealous of something that no one can know .Well I'm going to bed.! ZzZzZ LoL Please Comment!! oxoxo

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 03:10:40 GMT

I feel like I should put some lyric's in my live journal! I'll do a better update later! This is for you.....

"I Hate Myself For Losing You"

I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now dying
Doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore

I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?

You got what you deserved
Hope you're happy now
'Cause everytime I think of her with you
It's killing me
Inside, and
Now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
And, oh
I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew

I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?

I hate myself for losing you
And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
No, no

I hate myself for losing you
(I'm seeing it all so clear)
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
What do you say when everything's said?
Is the reason why he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 14:06:06 GMT

OMG! This weekend has been the best! On Friday, I had school it was good. Then after school everyone was going to seee the Ring2, and I was mad because I hate scary movies, but I really wanted to go. And it seemed like everyone was going! But then I found out that Gina wasn't going either becasue she doesnt like scary movies! So then me and her decided we would boycott the whole scary movie thing and go see a really kidish movie! LoL We went and saw Robots! OMG we are so kool! We saw some people at the movie, becasue our movie started at 7 and the Ring 2 started at 7 :20. Actually Robots wasn't bad, it was cute. LoL After our movie got out we were going wait for everyone but then we got bored and went for ice cream instead! LoL I got Cotton Candy, and Gina got Coffee Oreo Ice Cream.Yum! Then after that I slepted over G's house. We had so much fun!! Good Times... Then on Saturday Gina, and I woke up around 8:30 and we hung out in her room for alittle while. Then we ate breakfast (Bacon, Egg, and Cheese Sandwich, with Ice Coffee Lattes!) Yummy! Then around 11 I left and went back to my house and took a shower and got ready then met Gina again to go to the St. Patrick's Day Parade. We got there and Haley called us so we waited for her and then she got there with tons of people.All together there must have been 30 people in this big group lol , to much to name.So the whole time we pretty much walked all around downtown in circles, and there were to little fights.o0o yea, I saw Jenna twice! lol But it was still really fun! Then around 4:00 Gina, Haley, Kristen, Jesus, Connor, Marc, Jason, and I walked back to Gina's. But I couldn't go because I had a surpise party for my anut! OMG I love her and all but those 4 hours of my life were so boring!! I didn't know like anyone! Then I came home and hung around, and then went to sleep, and today I'm going sking with Julie! Yipee. Well I g2g comment! Thanx!

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 03:53:01 GMT

People!! I have a problem! I am totally freak on scary movies, but tomorrow everyone is going to see the Ring 2! I want to go...but then I don't want to go...OMG I Don't Know What To D!! Please comment to help!

St. Patrick Day!

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 22:27:03 GMT

~*HAPPY SAINT PATRICKS DAY*~

LoL Leave A Comment

.I. .G.o.t. .A. .C.r.u.s.h. .O.n. .Y.o.u.

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 20:02:52 GMT

I love this poem so much, you should really take the time to read it. Both girls and boys <<3

Ode to the Nice Girls
This rant was written because a nice girl finally snapped.

I've read the tribute to the nice guys; this is my response.

This is my tribute to the nice girls. To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be they that are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times. This is for the girls who understand that they aren't perfect and that the guys they're interested in aren't either, for the girls who flirt and laugh and worry and obsess over the slightest glance, whisper, touch, because somehow they are able to keep alive that hope that maybe... maybe this time he'll have understood. This is an homage to the girls who laugh loud and often, who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention. This is for those girls who have been in the trenches, who have watched other girls time and time again fake up and make up and fuck up the guys in their lives without saying a word. This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning and have heard the trite words of advice, from "there are plenty of fish in the sea," to "time heals all wounds." This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it.

This is for the girls who have never been in love, but know that it's an experience that they don't want to miss out on. For the girls who have sought a night with friends and been greeted by a night of catcalling, rude comments and explicit invitations that they'd rather not have experienced. This is for the girls who have spent their weekends sitting on the sidelines of a beer pong tournament or a case race, or playing Florence Nightingale for a vomiting guy friend or a comatose crush, who have received a drunk phone call just before dawn from someone who doesn't care enough to invite them over but is still willing to pass out in their bed. This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first blonde girl in a skirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend.

This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone. This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly for the girl he's with to be a random hookup. This is for the girls who have endured party after party in his presence, finally having realized that it wasn't that he didn't want a relationship: it was that he didn't want you. I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after failing to sleep.

This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep. This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear. This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted. This is for the girls who have been satisified with too little and who have learned never to expect anything more: for the girls who don't think that they deserve more, because they've been conditioned for so long to accept the scraps thrown to them by guys.

This is what I don't understand. Men sit and question and whine that girls are only attracted to the mean guys, the guys who berate them and belittle them and don't appreciate them and don't want them; who use them for sex and think of little else than where their next conquest will be made. Men complain that they never meet nice girls, girls who are genuinely interested and compelling, who are intelligent and sweet and smart and beautiful; men despair that no good women want to share in their lives, that girls play mindgames, that girls love to keep them hanging. Yet, men, I ask you: were you to meet one of these genuinely interested, thrillingly compelling, interesting and intelligent and sweet and beautiful and smart girls, were you to give her your number and wait for her to call... and if you were to receive a call from her the next day and she, in her truthful, loyal, intelligent and straightforward nice girl fashion, were to tell you that she finds you intriguing and attractive and interesting and worth her time and perhaps material from which she could fashion a boyfriend, would you or would you not immediately call your friends to tell them of the "stalker chick" you'd met the night prior, who called you and wore her heart on her sleeve and told the truth? And would you, or would you not, refuse to make plans with her, speak with her, see her again, and once again return to the bar or club or party scene and search once more for this "nice girl" who you just cannot seem to find? Because therein lies the truth, guys: we nice girls are everywhere. But you're not looking for a nice girl. You're not looking for someone genuinely interested in your intermural basketball game, or your anatomy midterm grade, or that argument you keep having with your father; you're looking for a quick fix, a night when you can pretend to have a connection with another human being which is just as disposable as the condom you were using during it.

So don't say you're on the lookout for nice girls, guys, when you pass us up on every step you take. Sometimes we go undercover; sometimes we go in disguise: sometimes when that girl in the low cut shirt or the too tight miniskirt won't answer your catcalls, sometimes you're looking at a nice girl in whore's clothing - - we might say we like the attention, we might blush and giggle and turn back to our friends, but we're all thinking the same thing: "This isn't me. Tomorrow morning, I'll be wearing a teeshirt and flannel shorts, I'll have slept alone and I'll be making my hungover best friend breakfast. See through the disguise. See me." You never do. Why? Because you only see the exterior, you only see the slutty girl who welcomes those advances. You don't want the nice girl.. so don't say you're looking for a relationship: relationships take time and energy and intent, three things we're willing to extend - - but in return, we're looking for compassion and loyalty and trust, three things you never seem willing to express. Maybe nice guys finish last, but in the race they're running they're chasing after the whores and the sluts and the easy-targets... the nice girls are waiting at the finish line with water and towels and a congradulatory hug (and yes, if she's a nice girl and she likes you, the sweatiness probably won't matter), hoping against hope that maybe you'll realize that they're the ones that you want at the end of that silly race.

So maybe it won't last forever. Maybe some of those guys in that race will turn in their running shoes and make their way to the concession stand where we're waiting; however, until that happens, we still have each other, that silly race to watch, and all the chocolate we can eat (because what's a concession stand at a race without some chocolate?)

By Jessica Leigh Griffith

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 03:02:11 GMT

OMG, I was so angry before. I must have written about two pages worth of stuff for my live journal about the past 2 1/2 days and all the sudden it disappear! I was so mad, you don't even want to know! Well I', tired and disappointed now so I'll do a quick summary of my days. End of Saturday whent to my cousins Brittany house for her 13 Family Birthday Party! LoL I had a great time, it was nice seeing everyone , and this sounds really funny but the food was really good! Brittany we have to get together more! Sunday, beginning of the day was boring but then Kristen called me to sleepover. It was me, Steph S, Melissa, Haley, Chelsea, and Kristen. And Geoff, Dave and Eric came over (But Eric didnt stay long)I had a really good time! Kristen you have the best sleepovers! We hung out, talked, and did stuff. LoL This morning we got up talked and eat breakfast from Dukin Donuts. Yum! Then later Chelsea and Melissa. And the rest of us talked to Connor, and pranked phone called people. Then Steph left. Then Kris, Halo, I made some snacks talked, and played with the bunny! Then I had to go! When I got home didnt really do anything I studied for my Social Studies test tomorrow, eat, and this sounds funny but I sretched! People please Leave Comment, I feel unloved when you dont.. *Tear Tear* LoL

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 18:39:52 GMT

So the last few day have been fun! Let's see on Wednesday nothing really happened we had school, and after school I had Gymnastics which was good and then I just came home did homework and relaxed. On Thrusday I had a busy day well first off I had school which was good then right after school I had yearbook which was also good. Then after that I went home got changed and went to gymnastics, AND GOT MY BACK HAND SPRING, all by myself! Yipee... Then really quick after that I went to Wendy's and then Stunt Team which was ok...On Friday good stuff happened lol. Well in school we took the Who's Who pictures! Cutest! LoL Then after school Natalir came over to work on the C.A.R project and we had so much fun! Our project is making pizza! LoL It was so yummy! = )Then after then I got ready and went to my friend Gina's Birthday Party, it was so much fun. But I'm mad that I missed Franks party. But anyways Gina got so many cool gift! (Easy Bake Oven LoL) And today we woke up and had breakfast! Bacon, and French Toast with orange juice! Yum. And then Gina, Hannah, and I made a cake with the Easy Bake Oven, and the bast thing of alll Dance Damce Revolution! That's the best thing ever! LoL But anyways now I'm home and I got to out shopping, and then I'm gonig to my cousins Brittany house! LoL For her family party! It should be fun! Well Commet!!!

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 01:31:57 GMT

Well yesterday turned out to really good! I did go to the St. Mary's tournament to watch my cousin Matthew you play! (LoL) He's like the best on his team!! And my other cousin Brittany was there! (YaY lol) So we hung out, and after Matt's game we went out to eat at Isabella's. We had so much fun!! So many jokes! We ordered so much food! (There were 7 of us) We had a house salad, Antipasta sala, one large cheese pizza, one large seafood pizza, and one lagre half with bacon and half with hot pepper pizza! We keep reorder drinks so many Shirly Temples! lol We were like the only one there, and we must of stayed there for at least 3 hours. And in the middle Brit, Matt , and I decided we wanted dessert ( candy) so we went to the shop rite next store and got all this candy! And later Brit, and I went back again to get drinks!! LoL! That was so funny! And then it was time to go but I'm gonig to see Brittany next weekend because of her family b-day party (Happy Belated Birthday!! LoL) Brit, and I are going to ran the party! Yipee... Anyways today was ok I had school that was good, and then I had CCD, that was ok! I saw Jenna! YaY! lol And now I'm hanging out at hime. OMG I'm so nervous about tomorrow, I'm going to Foran to shadow hopefully just Sage!! LoL But I'm so excited too. I'm scared they are ging to squish me!! Ahh lol~ Leave a Comment!

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 19:15:39 GMT

Well this weekend was boring. All I did was hang around the house. LoL I wanted to do stuff, but it was good just to relax! Let's see on Saturday I woke up around 9:30 and made a yummy breakfast. Toast, Eggs with cheese, and Hot Coco! Then around 11:30 my friend Kates mom came over because Teddi (kate's mom name)and my mom are friends. And Tedd brought 31 bins of Girl Scout Cookies. So now in my house I have 372 boxes of Girl Scout cookies! YaY, and YuMmY! LoL After Teddi left I took a shower. And then at night I rented and watched Sleepover, it was ok. Tonight I think I'm going to watch Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind. But anyways, today has also been boring. I woke up early today, and I couldn't go back to sleep. So I made a quick breakfast, and went on the computer (which I'm always on ). Then I got dressed, and maybe later I'll go to the St. Mary's Basketball Tournament, call if you want to come! And thats about it! o0o0o yea.. CoMmEnT! CoMmEnT! CoMmEnT! Please!! Ok...